Whew! It's been a while. Lots of new stuff going on. At least, I think it's new. I could check back and see if I had started these things back in March.
Mitch and I saw Nish Kumar at Dynasty Typewriter last night. Then we went out to Cole's for a French Dip sandwich and cocktails. It's interesting that I like Nish as much as I do -- will right away put on any podcast where he's a guest -- considering I'm way less political than he is, less left-wing. Also, I've complained bitterly about my dad shouting political opinions at me my whole life, whereas that's what Nish does in his comedy: shout political opinions. He's funny about it, maybe that's the crucial part.
I'm tired, man. Got a new project that feels like it's falling apart. Trying to care more about things and also take it easy on the anxiety at the same time.
I'm doing stuff that's new and outside my comfort zone and maybe could get me to a place I'd really like to be. Same time, big risk of stalling out. Of going backwards. Of losing and feeling stupid for risking so much, for asking for so much. Who am I to expect to get to do the things I'm trying to be doing? Every story is just a reminder about the dangers of hubris. I've got plenty of it.
Go all out. Keep it in check.
I'm around artists a lot lately. How lucky is that? LA is too expensive for sense, but maybe I've stayed around long enough to meet some of the people who are trying to make it happen. Who are on a similar journey to me, with the difficulties and pitfalls and - I don't know - the golden amulet to guide us. Maybe I'll really get something different from life. Maybe I'm already getting it.
