3.04.2022

March 4, 2022

I want to talk about the Aesop fable I heard on a recent Blindboy podcast episode at some point. But today, I'm going to just paste into here an email I sent to my book club (to which only two people have actually show up so far, ha). I liked it: 

Hello! 


In case it's of interest, I wanted to tell you a little bit about why I chose Villette for the next book club. Maybe I can sell you on giving it a shot. 

I first heard of Villette when I read How To Suppress Women's Writing (1983) by Joanna Russ. The relevant chapter, "She Only Wrote One Good Book," is available here. (As a side note, Russ's novelette We Who Are About To is *eye emoji* *eye emoji*.) 

An excerpt for TLDR: 
"I think it no accident that the myth of the isolated achievement so often promotes women writers’ less good work as their best work. For example, Jane Eyre exists, as of this writing, on the graduate reading list of the Department of English at the University of Washington. (This is the only PhD reading list to which I have access at the moment. I mention it not as a horrid example, but because it is respectable, substantial, and probably typical of first-rate institutions across this country.) Villette does not appear on the list. How could it? Jane Eyre is a love story and women ought to write love stories; Villette, “a book too subversive to be popular,” is described by Kate Millett as “one long meditation on a prison break.”"

Well, if Kate Millett likes it... eh? eh? 

Also, I liked the last book club book (The Argonauts) which includes stuff on Dodie Bellamy's The Buddhist, which I really liked. And I read an interview with Bellamy where she says, "Fans of the buddhist should read Charlotte Brontë’s Villette[....]"

So here we are. 

Happy reading, 

Amy


Okay, now BLog Time! 

Babitz, Eve – SEX AND RAGE 
Published: 1979
Read: 02/2022
This “novel” is about a woman named Jacaranda Levin, a stand-in for Eve, who’s a party girl and hangs around with a bunch of rich and stylish monsters. She calls this crew “the barge.” She realizes she’s an alcoholic. She’s off the barge. She gets a book deal. She gets sober. She goes to New York for a week. She comes out of it alive. Her main adversary is a man named Max, who she’s at first very close with and then very afraid of. I found it useful to be reading Hollywood’s Eve by Lili Anolik at the same time. She decodes some of the characters. Max is a man named Earl who put Eve off visual arts forever with the spare remark, “Is that the blue you’re using?”
I was disappointed in this book, especially compared to Eve’s Hollywood. I felt a sliding who cares.  Just read this New Yorker article by Jia Tolentino on it. And she drops some of the following really quite good quotes: “luck is like beauty or diamond earrings: people who have it cannot simply stay home.” “Along with the opium, champagne, brandy, and cocaine, Jacaranda and Etienne would clash by night, sometimes till dawn, when they’d walk along the dewy lawns (she never knew whether he owned or rented this paradise) towards the view and watch L.A. turn blush-pink, then yellow, then smog.”
        Tolentino here, with the quotes from Eve: She starts imagining that she and her new friends all live on a “drifting, opulent barge.” One night, she has fourteen of “some cocktail called a White Lady” and starts to feel like she might be doomed. “So many of the ones like her, the ones who were brought aboard to amuse the barge, disappeared,” Babitz writes. “They O.D.’d on Quaaludes or Tuinals or got hepatitis and had to retire forever, or they became like Marianne, a zombie girl she’d known, who would drop her purse in public and have to spend an hour finding the things and putting them back in.”
        And: Jacaranda imagines how Max sees her: “a rare enough thing—a native-born Angeleno grown up at the edge of America with her feet in the ocean and her head in the breaking waves.” She has a full bookcase, “no sense of ‘sin’ and no manners.” 
Her memoirs and essays are bettttter. 
Rating: ★★


3.02.2022

March 2, 2022

I'm still feeling a little out of it because of the wisdom teeth. I think I have a low-grade fever. A short scene, if Someone were to ask--

Someone: How are you feeling? 

Amy: Not too bad. I think I have a fever. 

End scene. 

Or alternatively: 

Amy: Not too bad. I want my mouth to be healed now. 

End scene. 

But my lower jaw is so slight and recessed in general that having this swelling makes me look genuinely cute. Like a different person, but still cute. 

MLOG Time! 
I'm behind on these, you'll see. 

DEATH ON THE NILE
2022
Directed by: Kenneth Branagh
Written by: Michael Green
Watched: 2/15/22
We start with a scene from Poirot’s past. He’s a soldier in WWI and he gallantly rescues his men by noticing the bird’s behavior – it means that the winds are calm. So the unit advances and overtakes the enemy in a situation where they otherwise would almost certainly die. However, a booby trap on a bridge is tripped and the explosion scars one side of Poirot’s face. It turns out this is why he wears such a giant mustache. He has a love, there to tend to him or to visit or something, who accepts him anyway, scar and all. Present day, Poirot is vacationing in Egypt where he meets his friend Bouc, who is on the honeymoon trip for Linnet (Gal Godot) and Simon. Poirot has seen Linnet before and we flash back to a night club, where Poirot orders one of every desert. He sees Simon there with Louise, Linnet’s cousin. Simon and Louise are engaged to be married, but Louise introduces Simon to Linnet (her very rich cousin) and the two hit it off. Now, Louise is following the honeymooning couple everywhere, and it’s stressing Linnet out. What’s more, Linnet doesn’t feel safe with any of the guests. While they’re in Egypt, someone dislodges a bolder from up above which nearly hits Linnet. Eventually, Louise shoots Simon in the leg. Louise is taken with the nurse and given sedatives. The doctor attends to Simon’s injuries. In the morning, Linnet is found dead, shot through the head. What else… oh the maid is found dead in the water, her throat cut. And Bouc is shot in the head while Poirot and Simon are questioning him. In the end, it’s revealed that Simon and Louise were in on it together. Louise shoots Simon with a blank. Simon acts injured. Left alone, he runs and shoots Linnet then runs back and shoots himself in the leg (for real) before the doctor gets to him. Simon was planning on inheriting Linnets money and running away with Louise. Oh shoot – and Louise’s actual name is Jackie. Louise is the maid. 
I thought this movie was okay. There were lots of CGI animal intercuts – like crocodiles eating fish and stuff – I think to try enhance the mood, but it didn’t really work for me. Also, I think I feel negatively about making Poirot a kind of romantic hero. In the books, as far as I’m aware, he keeps his huge mustache out of vanity. He’s a ridiculous figure and he’s also very dangerous. I don’t know, wouldn’t that also play for a movie? Both he and Miss Marple are more effective because people underestimate them and because they are outsiders. Why not let the audience underestimate them? Why not let us ask, we’re really watching a movie about this guy? Both he and Miss Marple are frivolous. Until they’re not. I like that about the books. It’s kind of the reoccurring thesis – shame on you for being so sure. So sure about Poirot, so sure about your aims that you’re willing to commit murder, so sure a woman can’t be a writer (okay, I’m filling in that last one). But maybe. Kenneth Branagh did BELFAST and that’s supposed to be good. But I don’t know, this movie was kind of a miss. 
Rating: ★★



3.01.2022

March 1, 2022

I got my wisdom teeth out this morning. I went under what they called "twilight" general anesthesia... or twilight local anesthesia? Twilight was in the name. Last night I was pretty worried about it. I've been under anesthesia before -- when I got my ACL surgery and when my broken arm was set before they cast it -- and I wasn't worried about it then. I think it was because I was younger and trusted the world and adults more than I do now. This time, I was just about as worried about the anesthesia as I was about the teeth extraction itself. 

I got my top two (non-impacted) wisdom teeth taken out the summer before college. I walked in and the dentist was like, "Hi, I'm Adam." Not Doctor Such-and-Such. Just Adam. He was young too. I only had local anesthesia that time, was wide awake. It took forever, and I swear they went in there with one of those clacky tools you use to crush crab legs. My lips hurt from being stretched so much, and the corners of my mouth got sores. It was not good. 

So I opted for the anesthesia for the bottom two. They're impacted, so I figured much worse. Plus the dentist recommended it. (I'm still a little loopy.) I really have lost my train of thought here. Here are some pictures: